Thursday, December 23, 2010

Yet another Not Knitting Post -

Another Birthday is rolling up to the gate.

For those of you keeping track…it’s one more than last year.

I woke up early today and found myself, not using the time to workout (curses!) but thinking about ALL THE THINGS. Which started me down a litany of prayers. I know so many people getting their arse kicked by the universe right now.

Starting the list…uterine CA, Prostate CA, Ovarian CA, early onset Alzheimer’s, something that will probably turn out to be ALS, broken bones, knee/hip surgeries, scathed & unscathed car accidents…

At this point I stopped feeling like a supplicant and started feeling like I needed a little lie down.

Then something tapped me on the shoulder and reminded me of the key point they have in common – I’ve known them all for less than 5 years. Yet each has touched me, enriched my life, made me smile, laugh & in one bizarre episode – sing.

For years I was someone who kept people out - because they hurt you. I’m not sure when it happened but along the way I decided that the only way to “not hurt” wasn’t to withdraw, but instead to hoard up as much deliciousness as possible. I’ve started collecting the good instead of counting the bad.

So while the years have left their mark on my body, I feel as if my life is just beginning and I’m looking forward to seeing how full I can make the rest of it.

Thank you for being part of it, I know it requires patience sometimes. Afterall, I've got decades to unlearn.


Dawn said...

Awe...that's great!
So glad to be a part of the happiness.
Here's wishing you a very Happy and Healthy; Birthday, Holidays and of course New Year! =)

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday! So happy to be a part of your life. I wear a bracelet every day that says "If you're handed it, you can handle it" My dear friend Betty gave it to me who is fighting NHL (Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma). I have learned a lot from her.

Always forgive, don't judge and be patient, there is a plan. Keep letting people in you will help all that hurt.

Blessings girl. Glad to know you!


ChelleC said...

I'm so glad you opened your heart to me. You are a dear friend. I can't even imagine what you went through when young, but I shudder to think of it. All I know is it made you who you are - and I treasure that priceless person. Sorry to get all blog mushy. :D